“Now hope does not disappoint….” Romans 5:5
This has been a key verse for me in the last several weeks. Hope is a tricky subject, many people believe that hope means God will do what we ask in our time frame. I have believed that. Hope means trusting that whatever we ask, in Jesus name, will be considered by our heavenly Father and done in His time frame, if it’s His will. We cannot begin to fathom the blessing in this until we have experienced it. I had lost hope. Several years ago all of our kids went through difficult life changing experiences, all within 3 weeks of each other. These were not good changes, talk about devastating. I could barely stand under the weight of it. My family was supposed to experience life to the fullest, great happiness and success because we loved Jesus. Because I trusted that the One who I followed would make sure of it, even when I screwed up. Life continued to be difficult with sickness and death constantly invading our family. Friends lost loved ones, parents buried children and I wondered if what I had always believed and trusted was real. I doubted, even though at that time I would never have admitted it. I wondered why God wasn’t listening to me, I lost hope. Slowly, and through many difficulties, I was continually pursued by the only One who knows me. Heart, soul, mind and body. And He loves me anyway, with all my faults and failures. Many of you know our story, many of you have shared some of these heartaches with us. You have listened and prayed faithfully. Thank you. The reason I share? Because if you are reading this you are my facebook friend and I obviously care about you. Because I see, hear and experience fear in myself and in many of my friends. Because I serve a God who wants to know you, through His son Jesus. Because I serve a faithful God who will not let me go. His hand of blessing, protection and love has been upon my life from the moment I was conceived, in ways that would take hours to express. Trust Him, even when everything seems wrong and haywire. Trust Him when your kids take a wrong turn, when they walk away, when your marriage is failing, when loved ones are sick, when all seems hopeless. Trust Him when the world becomes a scary place to be, trust Him with your heart, your life, your soul and your family. Don’t wait. He is answering my prayers continually in ways that I forgot to expect. Not in the “perfect” ways that I had imagined, in ways that only He understands and that are perfect in His will even when they don’t make sense to us. I am learning to trust, I have hope again, hope that He always knows and does what is best, for His glory and our good, even though we may not understand this side of heaven. I can’t wait to share the things He has done, that I didn’t even have the capacity in my fragile humanness to expect. Pray, pray, pray. Wait on HIM, his timing and ways are always perfect.